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November 23, 2002
Ruminations
Ruminations
Visits home are always difficult for me. My mother & I have never had a good relationship. I miss my dad and am glad to see him. But there's alot of painful memories for me there. Both of my exs live there. The death of my only niece, who was the same age as my son, in a senseless car accident in 1994. The loss last year of my grandmother who practically raised me. The memories of good friends and close family members that are gone. It has become a land of the dead for me.But today, my husband and I went on some property my dad gave me to look around. We've been toying semi-seriously with the idea of moving there when he retires in a few years. Watching him come up with ideas about how to do this and that, place a house here instead of there to take advantage of the terrain, heating systems that aren't dependent on electricity, seeing it all through his eyes made me consider that it could perhaps once again become a place of the living for me. It wouldn't be easy, but with his eyes to see through, I think it's at least possible.
Posted by Rita at November 23, 2002 07:47 PM